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[09 Jul 2009|01:34pm] |
Other than sporadic tweets this is my first entry in a long time.
I'm not sure what it should say.
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| What's done is done... |
[23 Mar 2009|04:16pm] |
I texted Katie one more time this morning and heard nothing, so I had to file the police report.
Even though it turns out she has been involved in similar situations before, I felt so bad as I was talking to the cop.
I used to be as careless with such friends in my life. I moved out of more than one apartment leaving bills behind. In jerp's case I had even taken his bill money.
I am so glad my life has changed so much in the last two years. Back then I would have been afraid to call the police because I always felt guilty and afraid of them.
So it's good I don't have to fear that anymore, but very sad I had a reason to call them in the first place.
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| Friends who steal things... Do you call the cops? |
[22 Mar 2009|02:53pm] |
For those of you who know Katie Cowden, this will probably come as a big surprise to you.
It did to me.
But Katie has taken about $500 worth of my photo studio equipment as her very own. During the Lady Liberty event (in July!) we asked Katie to take photos. I taught her how to use the strobes and umbrellas and told her she could take them home after the event and play with them since they were sitting in my closet doing nothing.
I have tried a couple of times to get them back. Just casually saying, Oh, I'm going to need those back someday. I'll let you know when I really NEED them."
Finally I told her I HAD to pick them up from her. I sent her multiple messages on Facebook and even asked on her wall if I could stop by last weekend.
She de-friended me and removed the post. I left her a message on her answering machine and texted her and she has ignored it all entirely.
I let her know that if I did not get them back from her this weekend I would call the police and report them stolen on Monday.
Tomorrow is Monday.
It sucks and I hate it. Since it is over $500 worth of stuff it would be considered a felony. Katie has always been a good person and a decent friend as far as I know. She is an excellent photographer, that I do know for sure.
But this studio equipment was an investment in MY studio business from back in 2005 and since I am looking for contracts again I need my setup.
What would you do?
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| All Hail FANBOYS!!!! |
[12 Feb 2009|11:32am] |
Hollywood.com said this:
"The comic Force is with Fanboys, a hilarious and heartwarming film about the wondrous powers of movies that last a lifetime."
It's still playing at Alamo Ritz. Get yo ass down there.
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| Damn it. |
[11 Feb 2009|05:54pm] |
I did something awful today. I did something that betrayed the trust of someone. Even though I didn't know them well, I know they did not deserve to be treated with such disrespect.
I did the "promptly admitted it" thing. But that doesn't really make feel any better. I think the "When we were wrong promptly admitted it" is a wonderful policy by which to live your life.
But I think it only applies to when you couldn't see what you were doing was harmful to them. What happens when you know something is wrong, but you lack control of your impulses and do it anyway.
You can admit you are wrong. I'm sorry doesn't cut it though. I guess there is some hope in that I feel absolutely horrible. There was a time when that wasn't the case. So I am glad those days are gone for me.
But I am sad that I still do things that I have to be ashamed of. And I am sad that there is really nothing I can do to make it better.
I guess sometimes you just do things wrong. Sometimes you hurt people around you. And the only thing I can do is try to learn from my mistake. Try to remember how bad it felt to betray the trust of another human being.
But for now I just want to cry.
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| Sometimes I forget about the road... |
[07 Feb 2009|02:27pm] |
As most friends know I spent most of 2000-2003 on the road performing. I was recently reading about another man who gave up all of his possessions except for what he could carry in his van (with his wife) and has been on the road full time for 6 years.
I sometimes forget that my time on the road was important, and not just a haze of partying and traveling.
I remember sharing a stage in the heart of Louisiana with a guitar player. I went on after him. When I came off stage he pulled me aside. He said, "I learned more about true religion from you in 30 minutes than I learned in 20 years of going to church."
So even though I numbed my personal pains daily with drugs and alcohol, I did so so that I might continue rather than be consumed by own selfish worries.
I did so that I might speak my beliefs in bars, churches, bus stations and roadsides. Sometimes I forget that I was helping. That somewhere along the line lives were touched. That everything happens for a reason.
If I had not abused drugs and alcohol I would have never found myself where I am today. And today I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
And I become more aware of that everyday.
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| Do all old people turn into Republicans? |
[04 Feb 2009|12:21pm] |
I think an educated and healthy populace is what really makes a strong and successful country. I support an even more "socialistic" view in these priorities.
At the same time I respect the fiscal responsibility and the "keep the government off my lawn" view from the Right.
Of course I cross back over again and say if we our going to reduce government's role in our business and financial affairs, we should also reduce them in our personal affairs (abortion, maybe drugs).
Also I am beginning to find "protesters" as ridiculous. Walking around in circles with a sign on a stick that says I Hate War is useless. What does this do to make the world a better place? Is the world better because we know you hate war? Isn't "increasing public awareness" really just making sure we know you hate something and trying to convince others to hate it too?
Hating war is like screaming for quiet. It is a contradiction. If you spend all of your time convincing children they should hate republicans with the fervor that we often do, then you are ENSURING the continued existence of war.
War is about being right. I'm right and you're wrong and I'm willing to die for it is the beginning of wars.
We would be better served to educate our children on both sides of the argument in as much a non-biased way as we can. Tell them why we disagree. Republicans aren't trying to hurt the poor by getting bigger tax cuts. They are looking out for their best financial interests. How many blue and white collar workers do ANYTHING they can, including lie, to pay less taxes?
When we teach our children to be understanding a tolerant we make a chance for a better world for the future. Tolerant and understanding families group together to form tolerant and understanding communities. Congregate into good states, good countries, and a peaceful world.
Shouting venemous words against your opponents (at home or on the street with a sign) adds more hate to the world. And is the easiest way out.
Truly thinking about what you do and making a DAILY change in your life to become more understanding and tolerant, that's the hard way. And the only real way to peace in the world.
I'm a Centrist.
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